Not had a happy day darling. I shouted at you whilst crying driving through Olney (just like you used to do coming home from work when you'd ring me whilst stuck in traffic). Why aren't you here with me, I miss you so much darling and you're not bloody here you silly sod! It's so not fair that you're gone. I love you so much - today is one of those days where crying is easy and everything else is so damn hard! Oh honey…