Well I did it. Went to Lanzarote on my own and visited our special places and some new ones. It all looks so different. You wouldn't recognise it. I left you two big stones and a black lava rock shaped like a heart at what was the Lanzarote Beach Club now The Sands. How changed everything was - and yet not. I cried a little but I was braver than I thought I would be. Nothing is ever going to be the same is it. Life moves on and you're not coming home ever. I have to deal with that every day now and mostly I'm strong but I have the inevitable wobble. Miss you so much darling. POW